Contemplating My Place

Contemplating My Place in your Heart   1/17/09


Keep me in your heart.
Remember my good intentions,
despite all the mistakes.
We were learning as we went.

I never wanted to hurt you,
although I repeatedly did.
I kept you at arms length,
not trusting enough to
be completely yours.

That's my fault...and
I'll have to live with that.
My deep seeded issues clouded
judgement and scattered our chances.

I still think of you fondly as
the stars give off their light.
I wonder where you are this night.
I wonder if you are truly happy.

Do I have the right to ask these
things of you?
Did I leave such a bitter
taste in your mouth?
Is there no good recollection?

Far away - so far away.

I want to hold you just once more,
to feel your warm skin against mine,
to be in that safe place again.

That specific feeling is fading fast -
the harder I try to grasp,
the quicker it slips through my fingers.

I wish on a dying star and pray that,
somehow, you are as well.
Find a secret place for me in your heart
That's all I ask....